Zechariah asked the angel, “How can I be sure of this? I am an old man and my wife is well along in years.” – Luke 1 v 18
So I am setting up camp in Luke for the next month as my daily devotions, which will, God willing, have some amount of order to it. And I think an ongoing theme will be the question “Who, me?” and God answering “Yup.”
I have been urged, by various writers and pastors, to engage with the Word by putting myself in the Word. “It can’t be abstract,” said one mentor, “For anyone, but especially for you. You’re the one that needs all the senses engaged, you’re the one that wants it to move from your head to your heart. It has to go to your gut. So get in the Story. That’s where God is calling you to be. Put yourself in the place of those who saw and felt the gospel in the flesh.”
Me, as one of the crowd of 5000.
Me, sitting on the grass, listening to the Sermon on the Mount.
Me, as one of the disciples, called to make “fishers of men.”
Me, as a paralytic, healed.
Me, watching a mat lowered into a room.
Me, as a Pharisee, concerned about the Law and seeing miracles done on the Sabbath.
Me, watching the procession into Jerusalem, palms waving.
Me, watching another procession, to a place of Skulls.
Me, seeing an empty tomb.
Me, noticing the company in which He keeps.
Me, being gazed upon by Jesus, His hand extended.
Asking, bidding, calling.
Among those who ask, in disbelief, “Who, me?”
Who, me? I’m an just old man.
or just a girl. or just a boy.
or only shepherds, watching our flocks by night.
or only fishermen.
or a leper.
or a tax collector.
or just a middle management centurion.
or a widow.
or a cripple.
or a Samaritan.
This call, this miracle, this blessing, this gift couldn’t POSSIBLY be coming to me.
I need to picture myself there. Through His Word, I need to realize that His eye falls on me as well. That’s the hardest part.
It’s easy for me to marvel at the conversion and healing of others. I love hearing the stories. They fill me with such joy and hope. I marvel at the people they have become through Christ. Their raw honesty and heart in revealing their stories. I am surrounded at every side by the communion of saints. In awe.
I stand back and exclaim, “Whoa, good stuff!”
I like standing back, truth be told.
I can be a very vicarious Christian.
Ever watch some sporting thing, like American Ninja or the Olympics or something, and after its over, it was almost like you worked out yourself? I mean, you got so INTO it.
…as you sat on the couch eating something atrociously unhealthy. Irony here, right?
God’s Word, I have heard, is a Living Word.
He reaches out His hand.
He is calling me OUT.
He is not content that I remain “audience” anymore.
Especially when he wants to label me son, heir, chosen.
But He is meeting where I am. So He’s starting me off with Zechariah.
Old man with an old wife. Wanted a son, and it is granted. Time ten in the blessing department.
The angel says: Not just a son, but great, filled with the Holy Spirit, with the power of Elijah, turning hearts back to God, making Israel ready.
And Zechariah? He says, “You’re joking, right?”
Angel: “Okay, you’re in time out. And yeah, it will.”
Okay, I paraphrased that last bit. But that’s what it is essentially, right?
I am so like Zechariah. Can’t immediately accept the Good Thing offered. “How can I be sure?”
And the thing is, he can’t. I can’t. It comes down to that dreaded word: Trust.
I pray everyday for it. Now all the more, for I feel myself ENTERING INTO IT. At last.
Reaching out to the Hand that would take me to Himself, in Love.
Thank you, Jesus.